Thursday, July 15, 2010

THE THINGS WE LEARN FROM OUR KIDS....

Today, while playing in the hot tub, Camryn was chatting away talking about all sorts of stuff.  Then, out of the blue she says, "Oh mom, I saw on the T.V. Oxyclean!  It cleans everything."  I said, "Oh really." and starte laughing.  She said, "Ugh mom, why are you laughing?  You just put it on it and it cleans it!"

I think I know what her future career will be, T.V. sales person for all of those products, or maybe a budding career on QVC.

Another thing she figured out last week......When we are playing in the swimming pool and she needs to plug her nose, she just shoves her fingers up her nose and that works wonders.  None of this pinching the nose shut business, just stick those fingers up there, they fit perfectly and it's a pretty tight seal!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

THE THOUGHTS OF A 3-YEAR OLD

So, Camryn says some of the craziest things, and I always forget to write them down.  I thought the best place to put them would be on my blog, that way everyone can enjoy them.  The other day Camryn came up with these two doozies:

1:  We were getting ready to go to McDonald's and she found a dead beetle on the floor.  I told her to throw it away because it's dead and we don't play with dead bugs.  She insisted that it was ok and that she should play with it.  I then had to use "the tone" to make her throw it away.  She of coarse threw it away and then proceeded to stomp out of the room yelling something along the lines of, "Fine, then I'm not going to play anymore!"  I told her that she was acting like a baby and that only big girls get to go to McDonald's.  She tried to convince me she was acting like a big girl, but her attitute told me something else.  I told her that I would tell her when she was acting like a big girl and then maybe we would go to McDonald's.
After a while I called her in and she was perfectly happy, so I told her we could go.  I also had to remind her that it is not ok to act that way and it makes me very unhappy.  She then chuckled and said, "I'm sorry mom, I don't know why I did that, I think I lost my identity."

2:  After McDonald's we were playing our nightly game of Zuma.  While perched on my lap she started to slip off and so she said, "Oh, I was slipping, but I think Heavenly Father put glue on me so I won't slip."  "Why does Heavenly Father put glue on us?"  How do you even answer that?

I just remembered another one from a couple of months ago.  We were in the car driving to Safford and she said, "Mom?"  I said, "What honey?"  "She said, "Why don't trees have their own language?"  After trying to think of something clever to say, and failing, I just said, "I don't know."  Then she threw her head back and started laughing.  She said, "I'm just kidding!"

This is why that kid makes me laugh on a daily basis.  Of coarse, she makes me furious just as much, but it seems to balance itself out at the end of the day when I go in her room to check on her before I go to bed and she is sleeping, looking so perfect.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Who I Really Am....

I have been fighting with these feeling of inadequacy and of being a failure for a really long time now.  I look around and see all of these "wives" and "mothers" that seem to be so perfect.  Ever since I became a mom and especially since I was blessed with the opportunity to stay home with my awesome daughter I have felt like I have to be the wife and mother that everyone else seems to be.  Well, I just don't measure up!  I thought that maybe I was just a failure as a wife and mother because I couldn't be like these people.

I was talking to a friend a few weeks ago and she was telling me that her husband tells her that she shouldn't read other people's blogs anymore because all it does is make her feel like crap because she isn't like them with their perfect homes, families, activities, kids, etc.  I now understand where he was coming from.  Don't get me wrong, I love my friends who are able to do cutesy activities with their kids, and make these adorbale gifts for holidays, and these freakishly well-put together invitations and announcements.  I just realized that is not me and it never will be.  I don't enjoy those things.  I hate to scrapbook, paint, saw, sand, bend wire, design murals, paint stripes on my daughter's bedroom wall, etc.  I now know that is ok, I don't have to be like them.  I enjoy going to Becky's house and seeing all of the beautiful things she has on her walls and her creative abilities, but there is no reason I should come home and feel ashamed that my walls don't look like hers.  That is not who I am!

So, I have had an epiphany this morning about who I really am.  This is who I am:
1. I swear, and try hard not to in front of Camryn but I know I will always have to battle with the, "Do as I say, not as I do."
2. I drink coffee like it's going out of style.  I'm sorry, but I love the stuff!
3. I don't go to church like a good mormon should.  I do enjoy it, and the lessons are very helpful, but I am just not at a point in my life that I have been able to put church above running errands, working out, relaxing, reading, surfing the internet, etc.  I am more than happy to send Camryn with my parents to church because I know it is good for her and I think it's amazing what they learn.
4. I love to read.
5. I hate to scrapbook.
6. I hate to download pictures from my digital camera and then proceed to post them on Facebook, blog, Kodak, Snapfish, and anywhere else that the whole world can see them.
7. I like to exercise, when I'm not fighting the lazy bug.
8. I love to cook and integrate new ingredients that are healthier.  If you don't like my cooking with Splenda, spelt flour, pureed veggies and all of the like then please don't eat it, but don't look at me like I am ridiculous for wanting to change some things in my life.
9. I gossip and love it.
10. I talk trash about 99% of things in the world, my life, and everything around me.
11. I like to take pictures of ridiculous outfits that I see people wearing.
12. I am not comfortable in large crowds of people I don't know.
13. I say things like, "Stick that in your pie hole", and I don't expect that my daughter will be able to resist saying it too.  It's a lot better than some other things she can say.
14. I like to be around people that I can be myself 100% and not feel like they are disappointed in me because I am not who they think I should be.
15. I love to hike.
16. I love to get involved in events that promote the awareness of cancer, disease, obesity.  I may not live the perfect life to promote wellness, but I am trying harder everyday.
17. I love to read and learn about anything related to nutrition, wellness, alternative medicine, and whole foods.
18. I like to watch movies and I let Camryn watch hours and hours of TV and movies on days that I just don't want to be productive.
19. I lose my temper and yell at Camryn when I've had it.  Of coarse I feel bad for flying off the handle, but I am not a patient person and never have been.  It is a battle everyday and I can only learn at my own pace.
20. I don't want a ton of kids.  It may sound selfish, but I like to go places, buy things, take trips, have my own time and more.  I don't want to have lots of kids just because people think I should, and then end up being resentful or neglectful.
21. I love my family and know that every single one of us is a different person in so many ways.  I don't expect them all to act the same and I sure as heck don't expect them to act like me.  I do expect that they accept me for who I am and hope that they are not disappointed in me for the person that I have become.
22. I love my husband.  I know that he will truly do anything for me and Camryn and I think that is amazing.  I can't recall the last time he told me no, unless I was being ridiculous of coarse.  He works VERY hard to take care of this family and he doesn't resent me for staying home with Camryn to be a mom.  I feel guilty everyday that he has to go to work and I don't.
23. I'm moody and hot-headed.
24. I talk a lot and sometimes don't listen to a word the other person is saying because I'm too caught up in what is going on in my life.  I know this is not a good thing and I try really hard not to be so self-absorbed.
25. One of my two best friends in the whole wide world is a man and that should be ok.  I have always gotten along really well with boys/men and I shouldn't have to feel bad for that.  I like to hang out with Steven when he gets to come home and visit 2-4 times a year.  It's not inappropriate!
26. I am a bad influence on Leslie and Julie when it comes to taking better care of our bodies.  As Leslie says, we should focus on using our influence for good not evil.  I'm still trying to figure out how to do that.
27. I hate clowns, they just plain freak me out!  I also hate the Burger King guy on the commercials.
28. I hate porcelain dolls, I just know that one day they will come to life and bite my face off.
29. I love having and going to barbecues with friends and/or family.  The more people the better.
30. I think that divorce is never a bad thing if the people involved are just plain miserable.  I don't for one second think it is better for the kids to stay together when the parents just ooze of hatred or disrespect for eachother.  Kids have to go through worse things in life than a broken home.
31. I think other people being gay is none of my business.  We all make decisions and they are ours to make.  I do not agree that gay marriage should be legal though, due to the fact that it will open a door for gay couples to sue churches and church officials for not allowing a gay marriage in their facility.  If a church doesn't believe in homosexuality, then they should not be forced to unite a gay couple in marriage.  If they can come up with a law that prevents this from happening, then I honestly don't have a problem with gay marriage.
32. I do feel that homosexuality is a choice and that no one is "born" gay.  I feel like anything else, it is attributed to the persons upbringing, environment, life experiences, etc.
33. I hate using the terms vagina, penis and breasts.  I prefer cooter, wiener and hooters.
34. I have a tattoo and want another one.  I think certain people look good with lots of tattoos and I don't think people should think the person is trash just because they have lots of tattoos.

Ok, I think that is the complete list, or atleast what I could come up with right here and now.  I will commit to be who I am from now on and not what I think the world wants me to be.  Of coarse I want to be a better person for myself and my family, who doesn't?

Monday, March 1, 2010

GETTING BACK ON TRACK! (again and again and again....)

Well, I have officially passed my heaviest weight since my original surgery in 2003.  This is not good! :(
I have been trying really hard to make some changes and it seems that food is my #1 enemy.  I have to fight against the power of the bad-yummy foods.

On a better note, I did some Power 90 Abs and Sculpt this morning.  Wow!  I'm definitely feeling it but it was awesome.  I think I realize that I like resistance exercising more than that freakin' cardio crap.  I know cardio is important, but I really feel more accomplished after resistance.  I hope I'm not too sore tomorrow since it's our first volleyball game of the season.

My goal is to lose atleast this devil 20 pounds that has been haunting me and climbing for the past couple of years.  Of coarse I want to lose the whole 55 that I've gained in 5 years, but I'll be ecstatic if I can get rid of the 20 for sure!  Thad and I are trying to have another baby, so I have to get my butt in gear since it's not really Kosher to be trying to lose weight while pregnant.  I just need to get as much done as possible before I'm knocked up and then try to make a hell of a lot better choices while I'm pregnant.  This is something I failed at miserably when I was pregnant with Camryn. :(

I love to cook and bake and try out new food experiments with healthy ingredients.  I just have a nagging voice in the back of my head all the time that says "I am sugar, crap and carbs, please indulge!"  My latest obsession is Spelt flour.  It tastes a heck of a lot like whole wheat flour, but it has a lot more protein.  I really like it, but I am still working on getting all of my family to appreciate it.  We are a white bread kinda family and probably always will be, but it is my goal to change it as much as possible.  Heck, I have my dad hooked on these awesome cookies that are made with spelt flour, Splenda, purreed zucchini, mashed banana, pecans, sunflower seeds, almonds and raisins.  I have even thrown some protein powder in one of the batches and it tasted great!

Leslie and I commiserate on a daily basis about how we are going to change the way we live and then at the end of the day laugh at eachother because we have both made the same retarded decisions with our eating for the day.  What can I say, we love them cupcakes and square pizza.  Luckily I don't have the square pizzas in my face at lunch everyday, but I do have the availability to make any "goodie" I want at anytime and then eat it all by myself.  We both lose!

Now I am off to type up some new recipes and maybe try a few out.  One of these days I am going to get my weight-loss friendly cookbook all put together so that my friends and family can enjoy some of this stuff too, but I'm sure half of them will be dead by then since I will be on my death bed still typing away.  Oh well, I'm trying and I guess that's all I can do.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

It's been a while....

Ok, I will attempt to update my blog again and maybe keep up with it this time.  I am terrible at downloading pictures, I think my 2 cameras have over 200 photos that I just haven't taken the time to download.  One of these days I will get some photos on here, or maybe not.

Camryn is the funniest kid I have ever met.  Of coarse she drives me INSANE as well, but I have never laughed so hard in my life as I do when she is around.  She has been telling us "Happy Valentine's Day" for about 2 weeks now, so it's finally here and I wonder how long after she will be telling us.

She has let the cat out of the bag about our family, so I guess I will post it for these whole 2 readers I have.  We have decided to have another baby!  The work begins next week, and hopefully, if I am still as fertile as I was before and as the rest of the Davis women, I should be knocked up in a couple of weeks.

Camryn told me before that she wants three babies, one for each of us.  I told her that's not how it works.  I tried to tell her that Heavenly Father only gives us one at a time (wishful thinking), but she argues with me and says that she wants three.  Then she told me the other night that daddy told her I was going to have twins.  I told her no, Heavenly Father will only give us one baby and she told me, "Well, I'll tell Heavenly Father that you are going to have twins."  Oh please, for the love of all that's holy, don't do that!

I am still studying and working toward a Certificate in Fitness and Nutrition.  It's really interesting stuff and it is finally making sense to me.  We all know how we should eat and that we need to exercise, but for some reason, I am one of those stubborn cases and I need the proof and reason as to why.  I am learning how the body works and how nutrients work in our bodies.  Wow, this is some intricate stuff!  I am really enjoying it though, ok, everything but the Medical Terminology, that sucked!!!

Maybe soon, I will be able to introduce all of my learnings into my everyday life and really make a difference.  Exercise is my main enemy because I just think of so many other things that I NEED to do and exercise always gets put last.  It shouldn't be that way, but you know, it is!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

New Life Starts Tomorrow!

I have been fighting with all of this extra weight since I was pregnant in 2006. I have been focusing on a low-cal, whole-grain, high protein type diet, but the pounds just keep packing on.

I've had it, so tomorrow, starts Atkins. I did this diet way back when I was in my late teens and did really well, but back then I didn't like things like chicken, pork chops or steak. I lived on salad, breakfast sausage and cheese. Ever since I had my gastric-bypass in 2003 I have a new love for all of these foods. The good thing is that I love veggies and meat and live for trying different recipes. I am hoping to have an easier time this go-around and get rid of this porkiness that I call a body.

Now that I have posted my new life-change I have to follow through. I guess I could always come back and delete this post if I fail, but where is the integrity in that? I measured and weighed today and enjoyed my last "bad" food. The thing that I am going to have the hardest time with is no caffeine, aka no coffee! I bought some decaf, but it just isn't the same! :( I guess it's back to drinking Crystal Light like it's going out of style since I can't even have Iced Tea either. What the freak?! I guess that's why I am so unhealthy these days, because I have a hard time giving up my vices.

Tomorrow Thad, Camryn and I are going to Phoenix or maybe Tucson to try and buy Thad's new truck. He worked so hard in Africa for 6 months and deserves this truck! I hope we find something that he likes and that's in the budget, it would be nice to see a smile on his face tomorrow!

Wish us luck and wish me luck on my new path. I will get back down to the weight I was a year and a half after my surgery, I will....

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I Miss My Daddy Soooooo Much...

When Thad left in February to go to Africa for 6 months we didn't know how Camryn would handle it all.  She did surprisingly well, considering she wouldn't see him for 2 months at a time and then he was home for only two weeks.

When he finally came home for good in September she was so happy!  She wouldn't let him out of her sight for weeks.  Now that he is back to work after getting a whole month off she is having to adjust again.

Last night she was sitting on the couch playing her Leapster while I was making dinner.  She said, "Mom, I miss my daddy sooooo much."  Of course she used the most pathetic, sad voice I've ever heard.  I told her, "He'll be home in a little while, he is at work today."  She looked up at me and said, "But I want my daddy to come home."  It just melts your heart when they love someone so much.  As soon as Thad got home she was running around like she had been slipped some speed.  She didn't even want to let him eat dinner, she just kept running from room to room making him follow her so that she could play with him.

Thad really is an awesome dad, he plays with her so much and believe me, she asks a lot!  Who would have thought Thad would be content playing with dolls, castles and lovies in a pink bedroom!